Experiences

Okie, well these are down. Obviously. I know a LOT of people have e mailed me asking why and telling me that they loved reading them. The reason is..jealousy is a really ugly thing, and I can't deal with it. And I can't deal with the IMs asking me if I know where Jay lives, or I know what Paige eats for breakfast or stupid shit like that. What does it matter anyways? I totally understand wanting to know stuff about bands you like. But there's just some stuff you shouldn't know or that is just useless to know. I am also sick of people thinking that I am their "instant access" to the guys. Lemme tell you, getting passes is a random thing for me just like it is for other people. Yes, I have been rather lucky, a lot luckier than a lot of people. But I don't take it for granted, and I don't try to shove the fact in peoples faces. I am grateful for everything the guys have ever done for me. They are all really cool dudes and really awesome to their fan base. But I never go to shows expecting anything but a good time. Weather it's around/with them or just between me and my friends, it doesn't matter. Fun is fun. I have had people come to stay with me to go to some shows with me, and when whatever they wanted to happen (even though I gave them fair warning that it might not) didn't happen, they ditched me. Even if I had been talking to them for a year or more previous to that. And I don't want to make "friends" with people just because they think I can get them somewhere. I don't want to be used anymore. And I don't want people spreading shit about me. I've had a lot of people IM me asking if I've slept with (__insert band member here__) and that's just annoying. For the record the answer is NO I have not. It's so not even like that, so get the thought right out of your head. I guess that's all I have to say for now.

Now, I am not saying that everyone I talk to is like this, I love getting e mails, I love talking to people, I love sharing stories etc.etc. But a lot of crap has happened, like I said before like me going out of my way to meet people who then ditched me when they didn't get what they wanted, that has made me decide to do this. I like 80% of the orgy fans I meet , I'm very easy to get along with, and I'm very hard to piss off...but there is that other 20% that makes me wanna puke. If this offends anyone in any way, I'm sorry it wasn't supposed to, I'm generally a very nice person. <3

 If someone really cares to read all this babble I used to call my experiences, then you can email me, and I will link you to the page I have them all on. But yeah, unless I decide to one day put them back up,  They wont be here.